Love

When I was growing up, I learnt that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let me down probably will. I have had my heart broken more than once and it gets harder every time. I've blamed my new love for the things an old one did. I've cried because time was passing by too fast and I was about to lose someone I love. I tried to learn to love like I've never been hurt but failed miserably. Love is giving him the power to destroy me, but trusting him not to. Whenever someone betrays that trust, a part of me dies. And it takes an awful long time to heal. I've died several times, yet never healed enough. One of life's greatest challenge is to find someone who knows all your flaws, differences and mistakes, yet still love you with everything he has. I almost gave up. Then I met him.
He doesn't quote poetry. He doesn't shower me with flowers. He doesn't think about me every moment. He's made me cry. But he has given me a part of him that he knows I can break. We have our differences. He only eats the yellow and green coloured Skittles while I only dig the red and purple ones. We share the orange. He loves salt and vinegar chips while I hate them. But we both love sour cream and onion. While he yearns for freedom and gives it to me in abundance, I'm insecure and possessive. He puts up with my shit just as I do with his. He's changed for me, just as I've done for him. We've cried for and with each other. We've hurt and been hurt. We've been through so much and have come so far. Only because we want us to work. Ask me how much I want it. I'll tell you more than anything in the world. Ask me how much I love him. I'll say to bits, but I know I can love him more. There is so much more I can and am willing to give. Time will tell.
He's not perfect because he's only human. That is why I love him with everything I have. And I love him more each day. He's made me smile more than I've ever had. He's healed some of my old scars. And he's showered me with love and bliss.
Love is only a chapter in a man's life, but to a woman, it is an entire book. I hope I'm only halfway through my book.


"It is better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than to lose that someone you love with your useless pride."

"It is not the lack of love, but a lack of friendship that makes unhappy marriages."

"If I hadn’t met you, I wouldn’t like you. If I didn’t like you, I wouldn’t love you. If I didn’t love you, I wouldn’t miss you. But I did, I do, and I will."

"If you are not big enough to lose, you are not big enough to win."